The Bel Air Sessions

by Freddie Phillips

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It's like Old Crow Medicine Show showed up halfway through Springsteen's recording of Nebraska.

These songs were written and recorded in the early 2000s (when I was in my early twenties), before I was married and long before I had children. These songs cover a lot of ground: the thrill of a new relationship, the pain of a relationship running its course, thoughts on the death of my grandfather, encouragement for a younger brother who was to become a father sooner than planned, getting cleaned out at a Mississippi casino, and the earliest realization that I had a drinking problem.

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released November 26, 2016

Cover art: Leila Allen

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Freddie Phillips Nashville, Tennessee

It doesn't take long for the Mississippi delta to come into focus in Freddie's music. A native of southeast Arkansas, he draws from childhood memories of time spent with friends and family on farms and rivers. After moving to Nashville in the late 1990s, he became disillusioned with the music business. It took getting in touch with the less polished side of country music to gain inspiration. ... more

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Track Name: Yet To Say Goodbye
Crippled and comforted by memory's armor
We go ahead and leave it on for one more day
Damage can't be undone, what's said can't be unspoken
One single word is still the hardest to say

Holding on
Wondering why
We have yet to say goodbye

Can't pick of pieces of what we've dropped and broken
Two fallen angels can't return to the sky
Lost in the night we lie here, waiting on our rescue
That's not much left of your dim light to get me by

Wasting away
Asking why
We have yet to say goodbye

Another time, another place
Had I never seen your face
Would I be the kind of man that you see now?
But there's nothing left to see
Just walk away and let it be
Our one last chances have been wasted
Long ago our time ran out

Looking back now I know there's got to be a reason
Water falls on our fire and still it smoulders on
Who knows what will be standing when this finally passes?
Some things get blown away and some hold on too strong

Holding on
Wondering why
We have yet to say goodbye
Track Name: Mississippi Song
Rolling onward
Like electric thunder
Eyes are blinded
By the delta sun

On the levee
Down in Mississippi
When she's calling
I've got to run

But that's alright
I'm at the right place at the right time
That's alright
Just a good old friend of mine

She said come on in
Let me show you something
She gives me whiskey
And blows me away

Before she's done, man
I won't have nothing
She take's my money
But she won't let me stay

But that alright
I'm at the right place at the right time
That's alright
Just a good old friend of mine

Drive me downward
90 miles an hour
Can't see nothing
Through this delta rain

Try to get back home to
The one who loves me so true
I got a taste of pleasure
Now I swallow pain

But that's alright
I'm at the right place at the right time
That's alright
She's just a good old friend of mine
Track Name: Chicot County
Stomping cotton in a trailer down by the ponderosa
Heading down a road and drop a load off at the gin
You always seemed to stronger than this big, mean world
I wish to God I felt that way again

Cause this here land's worth more than what you can grow upon it
And a man is made of more than blood and bone
Till the levee can't hold back the Mississippi
And everything we once called ours is gone

There's never been a brighter star in Chicot County
But every star fades as the night turns into day
To shine its light upon the other side of heaven
And my thoughts of you are all that still remain

Sometimes I pass the sign on that old highway
It's like I hear your voice call out across the land
"Take your heart back from the hands of this hard world, son.
When you face the end one day you'll understand."

There's never been a brighter star in Chicot County
But every star fades as the night turns into day
To shine its light upon the other side of heaven
And my thoughts of you are all that still remain
Track Name: Never Looking Back
I wasted years dreaming in the dark
Watching life go by without a sound
Learned to build up walls to hide my heart
Waiting for someone to tear them down

You opened up a door and you walked right in
Rearranged my world and found a space
Old troubles won't be beating me again
THey vanish every time I see your face

I'm losing all control and it's the sweetest thing I've known
So hold on if we're gonna take this ride
Into a world that throws us off the track
Cause baby, I ain't ever looking back

As simple as a circle neverending
As perfect as a kiss to start the day
A comfort when the night sky is descending
This love, a light that will not fade away

I'm losing all control and it's the sweetest thing I've known
So hold on if we're gonna take this ride
Into a world that throws us off the track
Cause baby, I ain't ever looking back
Track Name: Let Me Hold On
There's something about your touch that puts me at ease
So if you were thinking of leaving, don't tell me so
There's something about the way you feel, that makes me feel right
As desperation rolls over me, I never want to let go

It's not up to me
I wish you could see
That you are the reason I'm standing

Let me hold on
When there's nothing left for me to bring down.
Let me hold on
When there's no chance that I'll win the fight.
These times are tough, hey they'll only get tougher
My greatest test is ahead
When everything's wrong
Won't you let me hold on?

Now there's drinking to do at the bar, where everyone knows me
The bartender pours me a drink as I walk through the door
I listen to everyone talk 'bout when things will turn 'round
But I don't say a word, disappointment can't hurt me no more

I got here at eight
And it's getting late
But closing time always comes early

Let me hold on
When there's nothing left for me to bring down.
Let me hold on
When there's no chance that I'll win the fight.
Whiskey will tell me that one day I'll wake up
And my life will sing like a song
But when it's gone
Won't you let me hold on?
Track Name: Leave Me Far Behind
It won't do no good
To search for secrets you're hiding
No matter what answer
That I might think I'll find
I'm not there anymore
When I walk out your door
And when you go,
You leave me far behind

You pull me so close
I almost hear what you're thinking
Like you'll never let go
Like you'll always be mine
Still I know somehow
You'll only shut me out
And when you go,
You leave me far behind

You just carve up my heart to your liking
Before leaving me to heal for a time
When you come back again
You know I'll let you in
And when you go,
You'll leave me far behind

Seeing you on the street
Smashes me into pieces
Without a look my way
You hang me out on the line
I'm only waiting round
For you to lay me down
And when you go,
You leave me far behind
Track Name: Since We've Been Together
At first morning light
The sun has just begun to set
Just as precious moments pass
We form a memory to forget

As water fills us up
Thirst will hasten to return
It's another dollar spent
The day before it's earned

Just as every story begins to end
The very day it starts
Since we've been together,
We've been falling apart.

With every step we take
We're all closer to the end
With every hand you shake
Some day you'll lose another friend

We're running out of time
Each time the clocks hand goes around
What you spend a life to build
Some day comes crashing down

Just as every story begins to end
The very day it starts
Since we've been together,
We've been falling apart.

Looking back to when your heart was open to me
I just knew there was no way that I could fall
Now there's an empty space where your love used to be
Everything comes to an end girl after all

I guess that now's the time
To hold you close and say goodbye
I can't change your mind
So I won't even try

It might take a while
For a broken heart to learn to trust
And to find some other dream
To fill the absence of your touch

Just as every story begins to end
The very day it starts
Since we've been together,
We've been falling apart
Track Name: Maybelle, Goodbye
Some will say that we just fell apart
But I know that we've grown
You still have the sweetest touch
Of any woman that I've known
You know that I'll think of you as all the years go by
Goodbye my sweet Maybelle, Goodbye Goodbye

We laughed when times were better
In harder times we cried
Well I may not have held together
But don't say I didn't try
Now it's time to go our separate ways
No reason to ask why
Goodbye my sweet Maybelle, Goodbye Goodbye

When I see you passing on the road
With someone else at your side
I'll recognize the signs
And see the magic in your eyes
Just pass without a word if you're heart chooses to be kind
Goodbye my sweet Maybelle, Goodbye Goodbye
Track Name: I'm Not Coming Back Without More
Tonight have I given up sleeping
Revisting thoughts in my mind
Why is it that I am still burning
For something I'm told I won't find?

What's holding me down
Is what's keeping me safe
It's time I abandoned the shore
I'm going out farther
Come fortune or failure
I'm not coming back without more

A daylight makes way for the darkness
More questions from answers arise
I travel in search of a promise
As poison rains down from the sky

What's holding me down
Is what's keeping me safe
It's time I abandoned the shore
I'm going out farther
Come fortune or failure
I'm not coming back without more

Don't offer up your explanations
To why these things are as they are
Some people kill pain at the altar
Others find faith at the bar

What's holding me down
Is what's keeping me safe
It's time I abandoned the shore
I'm going out farther
Come fortune or failure
I'm not coming back without more
Track Name: Walk Your Way
There was a time
When you were larger than life
And the straight and narrow never was your style

So you made your way
The winding road turned cold and gray
Now there's nothing left to do but walk that mile

Love is the reason
You can rise to face tomorrow
When you feel that your whole world has slipped away
The freedom of the life you leave behind
Will not compare with what you'll find
When you learn to walk your way

It wasn't planned
For you to be so far so soon
If just gets harder now the farther that you go

When that time arrives
You'll learn to celebrate this life
When little hands hold on to yours then you will know

THat love is the reason
You can rise to face tomorrow
When you're sure that you're whole world has slipped away
The freedom of the life you leave behind
Will not compare with what you'll find
When you learn to talk your way
I know you'll learn to walk your way